Right now, I do. I just want to quit. Rob doesn't, and we aren't going to, that's just how I'm feeling right now.
Never in this process have I felt like giving up. Tired, yes....frustrated, yes....not even when we lost Vika did I want to quit. Right now I don't think I ever want to go through an adoption again.
Rob is too stubborn to give up so thankfully God made us a team. He's keeping us going right now, not me.
We are struggling to choose another child. All I want right now is Riley. How can I choose from the hundreds of waiting children? How did we ever choose Riley in the first place? I can hardly remember now, it just seems like Riley was always our beacon guiding the way.
Please don't suggest children for us right now, it's just not helpful. We want to save them all, and yet we only want Riley back. Just pray that God would speak to us in a way He has never done before about what our next step is.